Last weekend Josh and I were able to take a little road trip together. We had some business to do in North Dakota and we decided to go without the kids. There was once a time in our marriage where we were able to travel a lot more and we enjoyed the trips that we took together. So, the opportunity to take a road trip together sounded like fun. We enjoyed our time as we sang favorites from our past, teased each other, and enjoyed the scenery......We even got to eat at one of our favorite restaurants, Red Lobster.
On the way home we decided to go through Yellowstone because it was right on the way home. We saw a black bear which I have never seen in the wild before. We drove through some of the most beautiful country that I have ever seen. I will remember this time spent for as long as I can.
Now, I believe in divine inspiration and believe that we are given opportunities at specific times for specific reasons and I know that this opportunity to spend time together was given to us for a reason. We came home this week to a major trial....one that I know we will overcome, but at this time seems to be very overwhelming and difficult. I know that we are never given more than we can handle and that we have been given the means and knowledge to make it through any challenge. Fear and doubt step in making it difficult to find the necessary inner peace to continue.
I know that this is the most difficult thing that I have ever been faced with in my life to this point and that I will most definitely have to rely on the Savior to lead me through this challenge. I recently read this quote, "You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have." This is my new motto for the time being. I know that the only way to help my family and myself through this is to let go of fears and take ahold of the Saviors hand. I recently found this picture online...the artist, has some beautiful pictures of the Savior. I have looked at this picture frequently over the past few days and have been able to literally feel the saviors arms around me as I struggle with finding that inner peace. I am writing this for two reasons. One..this is the best attempt at a family journal that we have and two, ....because the struggles and challenges of others and their personal journals have helped me during the past few days. The amazing stories that many strong women have made available to us through blogs and other media sites can help lift and encourage.....and we all need that sometimes. And, without sharing too many personal details my husband could really use some extra prayers for the next little while. :)