Not too long ago, Kyler and I were watching a movie near bedtime. He chose UP.
I don't care too much for that movie, I thought at the time that it was rather boring...... but, as I watched this time I gathered new perspective on the movie...I'm sure most of you have seen it, but here's a brief rundown. Boy meets girl and falls in love, they get married and have a plan and dreams for their life together, they plan to travel the world and have a life full of adventure. However, life happens and the plan changes to meet everyday life and the needs that they now have. In the end his sweetheart, Elle, dies never fulfilling their dream to visit Paradise Falls, and adventure of a lifetime. Carl tries from that day on to find a way to take their house to Paradise Falls to fulfill her one final dream.
However, along the way he finally realizes that all along they had each other and that was all that mattered, it was the most important adventure of all, and that their obstacles were just a part of life. This is exactly how I feel.....we never expect or plan for obstacles such as these to be placed in our path. We don't plan for trials, yet they are a part of our earthly existence. I can honestly say that I finally understand.....not that I really understand why we were given this specific trial....however, the things that we have gained and learned are extremely important!
Joseph Campbell said, "We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us." Ellie learned early in her life, that her sweet Carl and their relationship WAS the greatest adventure of her life...albeit unexpected, as it was.
Not long ago, I remember thinking that my world was falling apart. Little did I know, as this beautiful quote below so beautifully states, that God was simply putting my life together EXACTLY the way He wants it.
With just a mere TASTE of the miracles our family has seen in the past year, I am confident that GOD knows FAR BETTER THAN I DO, what is best for us. My life has not at all turned out the way I always thought it would. This is definitely not the adventure that I thought my life would be.
How grateful I am for my life....my wonderful, blessed life...so different than I ever thought it would be. I have ached more than ever thought I would.....and I have felt joy more passionate and pure than I ever thought imaginable.
Through the past year only a few things have brought me comfort and peace....I thought that I would share, just in case someone else also needed them......
1) The two quotes ( many others were great...these are just my favorite):
No pain that we suffer, no trial that we experience is wasted. It ministers to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude and humility. All that we suffer and all that we endure, especially when we endure it patiently, builds up our characters, purifies our hearts, expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable, more worthy to be called the children of God... and it is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation, that we gain the education that we come here to acquire and which will make us more like our Father and Mother in heaven.
-Orson F. Whitney
3. This song.....
4. Many, Many talks and devotionals from spiritual giants.....this is my personal favorite from Aprils conference
5. Any many, many prayers, support of others, and other special spiritual experiences that are much to personal to share!!
(As I complete this post....two weeks after I started it.....Josh is finishing his last round of Chemo.....here's to a long couple of weeks as we hope to find that the chemotherapy has worked and there is no more cancer in his body! Then, relief for him as he regains strength, has one last operation, and can return to his normal day to day schedule!!!)